He makes me so happy :)
Like no other guy I've ever met. With my exes I was always ridiculously happy the first couple of weeks, but then I would get bored and end it...James is different. Ever since we first started really talking, he's been able to make me smile with the simplest things, like a random "hey you" text...I love talking to James! He's the funny and playful and the perfect mix of playful meanness and sweetness :)
I don't have the worried neurosis I've experienced with a couple of my exes. Christmas break away from him has been yucky [[except when i'm with my family...never a dull moment there..or a spare one to think about him l0l]]. But at the same time, I think it's a good thing because it's testing the extent of our trust for eachother. I never call to "check on him" like some of my friends do to their boyfriends because I trust him completely. And i know he trusts me like that too, because he doesn't show any of the signs of a jealous boyfriend, and I have experienced that firsthand! Oh. yeah. and he tells me he does :)
I love how I can be 150% myself around him-goofy to the point of being weird! No matter what mood i'm in, he always makes it better, l0l. He's the same around me...when I was first introduced to him, I never thought he'd be the kind of silly, goofy guy he is when it's just me and him...sometimes he's even sillier than me..and that's saying something!! :)
My parents love James and they have yet to meet him! Dad is even using some of his limited deer meat to make a special batch of jerky for James. And my mom is his friend on facebook...and when I am driving and James is texting me, I have my momma text for me, l0l...she really likes him.
He told me his mom really likes me too! They very sneakily played a trick on me Christmas eve....I thought I was texting him, but it was really his mom! She was asking me how my family christmas was and everything, and the whole time I thought it was James!...so i told him [[but really it was his momma]] how I loved my gifts, but how the best part was just hanging out with the family...I even said how happy I was that Avery knew my name, because I hadn't been home for a long time. James told me later that evening that I had been texting his mom and not him...he said that she was like "i really like this girl!" and he told her "that makes two of us!" :) :) :)
So, to make a long story short, I'm falling and that's scary! I hate emotional pain, it hurts worse than ANYTHING! before i've always just ended things so to avoid that part. But not this time! I am deteremined to stick this out and experience all the highs/lows/hurts/happiness that comes with being with someone you truly click with. James Allen Heather is mine, and I am his, and not his crazy ex or my tendency to be scared of this sort of thing is going to change that anytime soon.
Mah Life
Right so an update!
Zakk and I are no more. He didn't ever trust me. And the distance sucked. When I broke up with him he told me he hoped I would get drunk, raped, and pregnant...YUCK! who needs that, right? and to think I though maybe I could love him....that was a lie!! L0L :)
But it's okay, because James helped me through it...l0l :)
So I know he's not as good looking as Zakk to a lot of people, but I think he's gorgeous :)
He's freshman football player who just always makes me feel like a million bucks.
He's great :)
PicNik
So I have discovered PicNik.
It's a wonderful thing.
Trust me.
Here's a few of the better ones...
My angels. 
Aren't Kendra's grin and beautiful eyes a true promise of better tomorrow?
Tater Time!
Probably my favorite picture of Lily!
My beautiful cousin, Lily!
Me and my friend Rachael's feet!
I took this pic back in the spring
My beautiful sissy!!!
Awww Avery!!!!
Heather...thanks l0l :)
1. Where is your cell phone? in my lap
2. Where is your significant other? whats significant other l0l
3. Your hair color? poop brown
4. Your mother? ♥ love her so much!
5. Your father? ♥ one of my best friends, i'm definately a daddy's girl
6. Your favorite thing? HAHA, when me and ashia go outside and read
7. Your dream last night? I don't remember l0l
8. Your dream/goal? To be ultimately happy
9. The room you're in? Living room/bedroom/bathroom/kitchen...aka...my dorm room l0l
10. Your hobby? l0l
11. Your fear? eternal damnation
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? workin as an ag teacher somewhere...oh and married
13. Where were you last night? avoiding the rioting l0l
14. What you're not? worried about what people think
15. One of your wish-list items? i need money. [[maggie, this is a hint for you to tell mom and dad that i need it for christmas l0l]]
16. Where you grew up? Arkansas
17. The last thing you did? me n ashia rearranged and massively cleaned my room, and bunked my beds
18. What are you wearing? the usual...jeans/t-shirt/boots
19. Your TV? not got one l0l
20. Your pet? I MISS HANK!!! :(
21. Your computer? love it, usually
22. Your mood? antsy
23. Missing someone? sigh, let's not go there
24. Your car? the "Beast"
25. Something you're not wearing? sunglasses
26. Favorite store? PAC SUN!!!
27. Your summer? Crazy
28. Love someone? Quite a few someone's actually
29. Your favorite color? Yellow!
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Last night...thanks to Zakk.
2. Where is your significant other? whats significant other l0l
3. Your hair color? poop brown
4. Your mother? ♥ love her so much!
5. Your father? ♥ one of my best friends, i'm definately a daddy's girl
6. Your favorite thing? HAHA, when me and ashia go outside and read
7. Your dream last night? I don't remember l0l
8. Your dream/goal? To be ultimately happy
9. The room you're in? Living room/bedroom/bathroom/kitchen...aka...my dorm room l0l
10. Your hobby? l0l
11. Your fear? eternal damnation
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? workin as an ag teacher somewhere...oh and married
13. Where were you last night? avoiding the rioting l0l
14. What you're not? worried about what people think
15. One of your wish-list items? i need money. [[maggie, this is a hint for you to tell mom and dad that i need it for christmas l0l]]
16. Where you grew up? Arkansas
17. The last thing you did? me n ashia rearranged and massively cleaned my room, and bunked my beds
18. What are you wearing? the usual...jeans/t-shirt/boots
19. Your TV? not got one l0l
20. Your pet? I MISS HANK!!! :(
21. Your computer? love it, usually
22. Your mood? antsy
23. Missing someone? sigh, let's not go there
24. Your car? the "Beast"
25. Something you're not wearing? sunglasses
26. Favorite store? PAC SUN!!!
27. Your summer? Crazy
28. Love someone? Quite a few someone's actually
29. Your favorite color? Yellow!
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Last night...thanks to Zakk.
hey hey hey!!!
Hey y'all just have a quick update for my two people who like to follow my blog :)
[[♥ Maggie and Heather!!]]
Soooo anyway, I leave tomorrow at 3:30 for State Fair..in Little Rock...Hayley's parents are getting a hotel room and she doesn't like to be by herself so we are staying together at the La Quinta on Shackleford Road..if y'all have any idea what it's like, please let me know....
Ummm, I will be back from the Rock by Thursday afternoon...got a bible study that night...and I will be spending all day Friday packing for NATIONAL CONVENTION!!! WOOOOOOT!
Really excited about that! I leave at 4:45 sunday AM to fly to Atlanta, and from there we will fly to INDY...yeah, boeeeey. l0l
I will try to update more often, but i'm just doing this one right quick like :)
peace out my lovies!
[[♥ Maggie and Heather!!]]
Soooo anyway, I leave tomorrow at 3:30 for State Fair..in Little Rock...Hayley's parents are getting a hotel room and she doesn't like to be by herself so we are staying together at the La Quinta on Shackleford Road..if y'all have any idea what it's like, please let me know....
Ummm, I will be back from the Rock by Thursday afternoon...got a bible study that night...and I will be spending all day Friday packing for NATIONAL CONVENTION!!! WOOOOOOT!
Really excited about that! I leave at 4:45 sunday AM to fly to Atlanta, and from there we will fly to INDY...yeah, boeeeey. l0l
I will try to update more often, but i'm just doing this one right quick like :)
peace out my lovies!
OKay, explanation
Sooooo...
...Facebook outed me.
Story behind these pictures:
This is me and one of my two best guy friends, Zakk. Well. We are still JUST best friends, because there kind of is a definate liking for him within me and he definately likes me [[he's told me]] BUT, seeing as i am a Freshman in college, i explained to him that i do not particularly want a boyfriend at this point in time...he was so awesome about that!!! he was like you know, I like you, and i would date you, but I totally understand what you're saying, and if things work out between us, then okay, cool, we date, but if nothing ever comes of this and we just stay friends, that will be enough for me. so, he's one of my BGFs.
Then there's Justin. he's going into the Marine Corps [[dummy]], and he's under the impression that when he gets back we will date. PROBLEM: he's in Bood camp right now, so all i can do is write to him. PROBLEM: when he gets back he's going to be living in Illinois. PROBLEM: I don't like him like that. RAWR. so in my first letter to him, i told him all that, so we will see what he will say to that.
OH YEAH, how can i forget about Lockwood? HE'S SUCH A PLAYA!!! He gets on my very last nerve. My best friend here, Aspyn, has known lockwood for a long time, and has a huge THING for him...they never dated b/c he said it's too far away. WELL, ever since they got here, he's been talking to her and everything, then, he turns around and decides that he doesn't like Aspyn, he likes ME. ugh. L0L He tried to kiss me, and i punched him in the jaw! GO ME!! l0l. it was an enjoyable experience!!!!!! but yeah, he won't leave me alone, but I'm so MEAN to him, b/c i would much rather have Aspyn as a friend then him as a loser bf.
OKAY, so i went to church at the student center last night, and it was fun! I like the kids there, they are very nice! Tonight they are having a coke float and movie night, so i will be headin' out ther about 7ish. it'll be fun :)
and the people at Jackson Street church of Christ are awesome!! I had one lady (Sandy Keith) come up to me and say Katie, what are you doing after church today? well i was just gonna go back and clean my dorm room, so i told her, and she was like, well I sure would like to take you out to eat today! so me and her went to Cancun's a mexican restaurant here (no bueno, btw, it was gross) and she gave me 3 different numbers to contact her at, and told me if i EVER needed to just get away from campus to just call her and she'd take me shopping in shreveport or give me directions out to her house and just chill out (her and her husband are retired and live out in the country). So i'm sure i will take her up on the offer! :)
College Life!
I officially LOVE college life! It's so fun, and the teachers are much more my type of people to deal with...
...b/c they don't give a rat's hind leg whether you do your work or not!
PLUS, i have pretty much 3 guaranteed A's right now...Health is based on attendence and participation, and speech is going to be a breeze. Doc Penny is my animal science teacher and the only way to fail her class is to die. the only class i'm really worried about it College algebra...yuck. but Sutherland seems like a great guy, i mean we only have 6 tests and he's goes over everything until everyone has it down.
MONDAY: Speech at 9; Animal Science at 11; College Algebra at 1:10; and Ag orientation at 7
TUESDAY: Health at 9:30; Animal Science at 11; Freshmen Seminar at 12:10; Lab at 4
WEDNESDAY: Speech at 9; Animal Science at 11; College Algebra at 1:10
THURSDAY: Health at 9:30; Animal Science at 11: Freshmen Seminar at 12:10
FRIDAY: Speech at 9; College Algebra at 1:10
Cotacting me: goodkatie13@hotmail.com; kmgood8908@muleriders.saumag.edu; and you can email me for my P.O. Box, okay?
I'm staying in Talley Hall which is where all the ag people are staying, and it's AMAZING!! I love it. it's also kind of the party hall, but since I don't drink, i really don't with them. i usually hang out with my "crew" l0l Aspyn Soden, Naomi Varnell, and Andru Mefford. Also, i hang out with the rodeo crowd. :) yay cowboys! l0l :)
...b/c they don't give a rat's hind leg whether you do your work or not!
PLUS, i have pretty much 3 guaranteed A's right now...Health is based on attendence and participation, and speech is going to be a breeze. Doc Penny is my animal science teacher and the only way to fail her class is to die. the only class i'm really worried about it College algebra...yuck. but Sutherland seems like a great guy, i mean we only have 6 tests and he's goes over everything until everyone has it down.
MONDAY: Speech at 9; Animal Science at 11; College Algebra at 1:10; and Ag orientation at 7
TUESDAY: Health at 9:30; Animal Science at 11; Freshmen Seminar at 12:10; Lab at 4
WEDNESDAY: Speech at 9; Animal Science at 11; College Algebra at 1:10
THURSDAY: Health at 9:30; Animal Science at 11: Freshmen Seminar at 12:10
FRIDAY: Speech at 9; College Algebra at 1:10
Cotacting me: goodkatie13@hotmail.com; kmgood8908@muleriders.saumag.edu; and you can email me for my P.O. Box, okay?
I'm staying in Talley Hall which is where all the ag people are staying, and it's AMAZING!! I love it. it's also kind of the party hall, but since I don't drink, i really don't with them. i usually hang out with my "crew" l0l Aspyn Soden, Naomi Varnell, and Andru Mefford. Also, i hang out with the rodeo crowd. :) yay cowboys! l0l :)
[[FFA owns my soul now]] {{not really, l0l}}
Wow, it has been a long time since I’ve posted! Well, let’s start off with guys.
DJ was my boyfriend when Paige died. He ended up being a liar and a jerk so yeah, he’s gone.
I was too busy the rest of the summer to find a guy, l0l, until recently. Grant David Harness is the absolute sweetest, nicest guy EVER. He runs all over the place for me, or would if I’d let him. He’s also very very VERY good-looking…he’s got the most gorgeous eyes… I never completely understood what writers meant when they say “…looked into his liquid brown eyes…” but now I know!! Grant’s eyes are amazing, and they have the thickest lashes! Plus he has a job, a truck (yuck, Chevy! l0l), and an amazing family. Oh yeah, and he never cusses, and lives legally. Sadly, he’s just not my type. We dated, but now we are just really good friends. My idea. I felt like a jerk because he “still really likes me” but going to college and everything won’t make it any easier to like someone who I am just really comfortable being friends with, and nothing more.
Now, for the rest of the summer…I have been gone over a month for FFA. I spent the first week of my summer in Hot Springs at Camp Couchdale, running for an FFA state office. It was very very difficult. I had to be up-to-date on my ag issues (completely pulled that round out of my butt! L0l), I had to write a 4 minute extemp speech on a ridiculous topic, write and memorize a 6 minute speech on a good topic in 14 hours, take a very difficult test and endure 2 hard interviews. Really, the anticipation of everything made it worse than it really was.
I then went back for BLAST-Off (Building something And something Teams of Officers) training where I proceeded to do an okay job of speechmaking and goal-setting. That sucked 4 days out of my summer.
Then we all took a 6 hour van trip to Paris Landing TN for NLCSO (National Leadership Conference for State Officers) with the states of….TN, KY, MI, and AR. Yeah. Have NO IDEA why MI was there…l0l J. Made some awesome!!! friends at NLCSO. The theme was “Discover the Rhythm” and Zack Kinne (the National FFA President) and Tyler Tenbarge (one of the National Vice-Presidents) did a super good job of conducting the workshops! Oh, yeah, and I learned a new line-dance, and got a bunch of awesome free stuff.
THEN we had 2 weeks off, but I had to miss the Fourth of July for ALC (Arkansas Leadership Conference) training and ALC. That was the HARDEST thing for me to do, FFA-wise, because we had 3 days to absorb SO MUCH TRAINING AND INFORMATION!!! But 2 weeks we did the conference ended up turning out really great even though the first week we never got to bed before 2, and the second week we never got to bed before 12. It’s not because we didn’t want to, but we had to stay up to do room checks, and prepare for the next day, and have meetings. But Mr. Romeo from Conway gave us the best compliment. “I think this week as been so much more like ALCs from the eighties and nineties…ya’ll did such a great job, this is the best ALC I can remember in the past 15 years. I had fun as an ag teacher and that’s hard to do. Thank you!” No, Mr. Romeo, THANK YOU! Just that one compliment right there made these past two week s of stress and tears and frustration and hard work completely worth it.
So now, let’s talk about college…I leave on either the 23rd or the 25th I’m not sure yet, l0l. But it’s a 5 hour drive that I’m completely comfortable making, so I’m good…I’ll be in room 206 of Talley Hall (that’s the agri dorm). I had to switch roommates. I really can’t think of anything else. Oh yeah, my schedule is super easy.
So, I will put a post with more detail, one post for NLCSO, with pictures, one for ALC, with pictures, and one for state convention, also with pictures.
Sooooo…byeee!
Much love!
Katie
DJ was my boyfriend when Paige died. He ended up being a liar and a jerk so yeah, he’s gone.
I was too busy the rest of the summer to find a guy, l0l, until recently. Grant David Harness is the absolute sweetest, nicest guy EVER. He runs all over the place for me, or would if I’d let him. He’s also very very VERY good-looking…he’s got the most gorgeous eyes… I never completely understood what writers meant when they say “…looked into his liquid brown eyes…” but now I know!! Grant’s eyes are amazing, and they have the thickest lashes! Plus he has a job, a truck (yuck, Chevy! l0l), and an amazing family. Oh yeah, and he never cusses, and lives legally. Sadly, he’s just not my type. We dated, but now we are just really good friends. My idea. I felt like a jerk because he “still really likes me” but going to college and everything won’t make it any easier to like someone who I am just really comfortable being friends with, and nothing more.
Now, for the rest of the summer…I have been gone over a month for FFA. I spent the first week of my summer in Hot Springs at Camp Couchdale, running for an FFA state office. It was very very difficult. I had to be up-to-date on my ag issues (completely pulled that round out of my butt! L0l), I had to write a 4 minute extemp speech on a ridiculous topic, write and memorize a 6 minute speech on a good topic in 14 hours, take a very difficult test and endure 2 hard interviews. Really, the anticipation of everything made it worse than it really was.
I then went back for BLAST-Off (Building something And something Teams of Officers) training where I proceeded to do an okay job of speechmaking and goal-setting. That sucked 4 days out of my summer.
Then we all took a 6 hour van trip to Paris Landing TN for NLCSO (National Leadership Conference for State Officers) with the states of….TN, KY, MI, and AR. Yeah. Have NO IDEA why MI was there…l0l J. Made some awesome!!! friends at NLCSO. The theme was “Discover the Rhythm” and Zack Kinne (the National FFA President) and Tyler Tenbarge (one of the National Vice-Presidents) did a super good job of conducting the workshops! Oh, yeah, and I learned a new line-dance, and got a bunch of awesome free stuff.
THEN we had 2 weeks off, but I had to miss the Fourth of July for ALC (Arkansas Leadership Conference) training and ALC. That was the HARDEST thing for me to do, FFA-wise, because we had 3 days to absorb SO MUCH TRAINING AND INFORMATION!!! But 2 weeks we did the conference ended up turning out really great even though the first week we never got to bed before 2, and the second week we never got to bed before 12. It’s not because we didn’t want to, but we had to stay up to do room checks, and prepare for the next day, and have meetings. But Mr. Romeo from Conway gave us the best compliment. “I think this week as been so much more like ALCs from the eighties and nineties…ya’ll did such a great job, this is the best ALC I can remember in the past 15 years. I had fun as an ag teacher and that’s hard to do. Thank you!” No, Mr. Romeo, THANK YOU! Just that one compliment right there made these past two week s of stress and tears and frustration and hard work completely worth it.
So now, let’s talk about college…I leave on either the 23rd or the 25th I’m not sure yet, l0l. But it’s a 5 hour drive that I’m completely comfortable making, so I’m good…I’ll be in room 206 of Talley Hall (that’s the agri dorm). I had to switch roommates. I really can’t think of anything else. Oh yeah, my schedule is super easy.
So, I will put a post with more detail, one post for NLCSO, with pictures, one for ALC, with pictures, and one for state convention, also with pictures.
Sooooo…byeee!
Much love!
Katie
Alyssa Paige Slape
Here for a moment,
Gone in a flash.
I just didn't know
It would hurt this bad.
A simple mistake,
A little extra gas,
A too sharp curve,
She's now in the past.
She'd driven that road
One hundred times before,
Radio playing,
Pedal to the floor.
She's in a better world,
A much more beautiful place.
One that matches her heart,
And her beautiful face.
Paigey, we miss you,
We want you back
Our world is darker,
Less light, more black.
We only had you for a little while.
That wasn't enough.
You were truly an angel-
Your being gone is tough.
But we'll see you again
[[To this precious thought we cling]]
As Jesus descends,
And angels sing.
You'll be in the front row,
of that angel choir
With a joyful face
and voice that won't tire.
Paige, you're gone,
We have to accept this fact
But it's so hard to think
That you're not coming back.
A beautiful person,
Face, mind, and soul.
An amazing girl,
Who loved the world as a whole.
We had you a while,
But you were just on loan,
We're hurting, Paige,
But you've finally gone home.
Alyssa Paige Slape was killed in a car accident on her way to Ponca, Arkansas, on Saturday morning, May 24th. She was sixteen years old. She hit the corner to fast, lost control and ended up sideways in the other lane. She was t-boned by another car, and died on impact. She was beautiful, she was kind, she was loving, she was my close cousin. I miss her so much, but i know that God just couldn't do without her by his side. RIP, Paigey, I love you.
Gone in a flash.
I just didn't know
It would hurt this bad.
A simple mistake,
A little extra gas,
A too sharp curve,
She's now in the past.
She'd driven that road
One hundred times before,
Radio playing,
Pedal to the floor.
She's in a better world,
A much more beautiful place.
One that matches her heart,
And her beautiful face.
Paigey, we miss you,
We want you back
Our world is darker,
Less light, more black.
We only had you for a little while.
That wasn't enough.
You were truly an angel-
Your being gone is tough.
But we'll see you again
[[To this precious thought we cling]]
As Jesus descends,
And angels sing.
You'll be in the front row,
of that angel choir
With a joyful face
and voice that won't tire.
Paige, you're gone,
We have to accept this fact
But it's so hard to think
That you're not coming back.
A beautiful person,
Face, mind, and soul.
An amazing girl,
Who loved the world as a whole.
We had you a while,
But you were just on loan,
We're hurting, Paige,
But you've finally gone home.
Alyssa Paige Slape was killed in a car accident on her way to Ponca, Arkansas, on Saturday morning, May 24th. She was sixteen years old. She hit the corner to fast, lost control and ended up sideways in the other lane. She was t-boned by another car, and died on impact. She was beautiful, she was kind, she was loving, she was my close cousin. I miss her so much, but i know that God just couldn't do without her by his side. RIP, Paigey, I love you.
thank you.
I have been tagged. My dear cousin Heather (http://www.ahhulsey.blogspot.com/) [[yes, I could put her name in a link, but I don't feel like trying to remember the code for it. blah! l0l :)]] me. So here are the rules:
Link to the person who tagged you.
Post the rules in your blog entry.
Share 7 random, or weird, facts about yourself.
Tag 7 random people at the end of the post, linking to them.
Leave a comment on their blog so that they know they’ve been tagged.
1) I am adopting crack and other drug addicted babies...they need some love so bad!
2) I really really really really like Rick. But it's so hard to stay with one guy. I don't know if I'll ever get married [[but then again, I am only 18!!]]
3) I have a secret passion for horses.
4) My dog, Hank, is the best thing that has happened to me so far. I am HIS, and no other dog is allowed near me. I'm going to miss him so bad, but some students are allowed to bring their dogs to SAU, so next semester I probly will. My other dog, Molly, is kind of a tramp. No kidding. My mom even calls her that.
5) I only fight with my mom when my sister or dad is around. I never fight with her when it's just me and her.
6) I can touch my nose with my tongue.
7)I'm kind of looking forward to leaving most of my friends from school...actually all of them except Nicole and Rachael, my absolute besties.
Okay, those are my 7 Weird and Random facts. Now I am tagging
NO ONE.
Because the only blogger I really know/really care about is Heather. and she tagged me. :)
Link to the person who tagged you.
Post the rules in your blog entry.
Share 7 random, or weird, facts about yourself.
Tag 7 random people at the end of the post, linking to them.
Leave a comment on their blog so that they know they’ve been tagged.
1) I am adopting crack and other drug addicted babies...they need some love so bad!
2) I really really really really like Rick. But it's so hard to stay with one guy. I don't know if I'll ever get married [[but then again, I am only 18!!]]
3) I have a secret passion for horses.
4) My dog, Hank, is the best thing that has happened to me so far. I am HIS, and no other dog is allowed near me. I'm going to miss him so bad, but some students are allowed to bring their dogs to SAU, so next semester I probly will. My other dog, Molly, is kind of a tramp. No kidding. My mom even calls her that.
5) I only fight with my mom when my sister or dad is around. I never fight with her when it's just me and her.
6) I can touch my nose with my tongue.
7)I'm kind of looking forward to leaving most of my friends from school...actually all of them except Nicole and Rachael, my absolute besties.
Okay, those are my 7 Weird and Random facts. Now I am tagging
NO ONE.
Because the only blogger I really know/really care about is Heather. and she tagged me. :)
{(Life...
...is going alright.)}
I'm really enjoying just being myself and not having to impress anyone...I don't wear makeup to school, I don't dress up for school...l0l...I don't have too, my boeeeyyy is 2 hours aways, haha!
Speaking of males, let me tell you about Rick DeWayne Efurd:
He's a guy. Who lives in Van Buren. Which is really far aways, so I don't worry about looking good or anything. Even when he comes to see [[which is not that often, sadly]] I don't try to be cool, like I always tried to be with Brad and Jason. I can just be my child-like self.
He's the same height as me, which is funny. 'Cause I always go for the much taller guys... haha. :) He likes my eyes, smile and freckles. I love is crazy eyebrows, eyes, and silly way of looking at things.
I was more than a little nervous getting into this relationship, due to the fact i will be leaving in a few months. So I guess we will just have to see. :)
On another note, I'm finally getting to the point where I realize that this is all ending...I may never see some of these people ever again...I really hope it's not my best friends that I never see...two of them are moving to Texas, one will be at Tech, and the other is NACC-ing it until she moves to some Bible college in TX. It's really sad...I really don't know what I'm going to do without:
Nicole: to keep me real
Rachael: to keep me child-like
Jessica: to keep focused
Hailee: to keep me laughing
Samantha C: to keep me believing
Clint: to keep me faithful in the power of friendship...he's my absolute BESTIE and he lives 6 hours away!
What am I going to do? I love meeting new people, so that won't be too bad. It's the trusting new people that I may have a slight problem with...
and I'm running for FFA state officer. Mr. Lazarus [[the head honcho of state FFA]] told Mr. Adams [[my FFA adviser]] that he looked forward to me being on his state officer team..this is big because there's about 20 people running for 6 spots...and he is expecting me to get it. I don't want to, but I know I have to. *sigh* well, maybe I will lose.
So anyway, this is it. This is my latest post.
[[...They taped over your mouth, Scribbled out the truth with their lies, Your little spies...]]
Today was the best spring break day EVER! Let's start about 12:00 this morning.
Midnight found me and my bestie, Nicole, sitting in the Country Mart parking lot in Lead Hill with one of her Lead Hill people goofing off. Having fun, it was crazy! l0l. Ended up going back to Gage's house and listening to his band and listening to Nicole stun everyone because she is quite possibly the most amazing singer I have ever heard. You should have seen those boys' faces, L0L! :) Ended up getting home about 3.
So. Got up this morning at 10:30, Kara called, talked to her, which was nice because she's been in GA, and I missed her! l0l, she's crazy!
Went to my Granny and Poppy's about 11:00 this morning. Granny and I sat down and got a bunch of addresses together to use for graduation announcements. Then we made pancakes for lunch, YUM, and then we made bread for Easter tomorrow!
So after we'd cleaned up the kitchen, Granny says "Do you want to take a walk? I'll show you the swimming hole we all went to when we were kids." I said, sure! and off we went. We had to climb through one fence, crawl under a fence, go through a fence, and then climb over another one! it was funny! but anyway, the whole way, Granny was telling me about trips they took down there when she was a kid...one time they took a big tub PawPaw Good had made to mix concrete in down there because they thought it would make a good boat...well, it didn't float and the boys left the girls to carry that big old heavy thing out of there! Granny says when she and Poppy first moved back she went to look for it because the girls had got tired of carrying it and left it sittin' in the woods. She said it wasn't there anymore, though.
Oh, it was BEAUTIFUL down there! these big Ozark mountain rocks with icey cold clear water tumbling around them...it was wonderful! Granny said during the summer sometime, all us kids will have to go down there and take a daytrip and follow the creek all the way out to the pour-off and have a picnic! It'll be fun...i'm excited!
Anyway, we got back to the house just in time to pull the bread from the oven and then eat some hot, crusty deliciousness while Poppy told a couple of stories from when he was kid.
So, I'm going now to work on my American History homework, but, all-in-all it's been a very fulfilling day.
Oh, and Jason wrecked his truck last night. Poor guy, he's really tore up about it. Huh, he even texted me to tell me about it. :(
Midnight found me and my bestie, Nicole, sitting in the Country Mart parking lot in Lead Hill with one of her Lead Hill people goofing off. Having fun, it was crazy! l0l. Ended up going back to Gage's house and listening to his band and listening to Nicole stun everyone because she is quite possibly the most amazing singer I have ever heard. You should have seen those boys' faces, L0L! :) Ended up getting home about 3.
So. Got up this morning at 10:30, Kara called, talked to her, which was nice because she's been in GA, and I missed her! l0l, she's crazy!
Went to my Granny and Poppy's about 11:00 this morning. Granny and I sat down and got a bunch of addresses together to use for graduation announcements. Then we made pancakes for lunch, YUM, and then we made bread for Easter tomorrow!
So after we'd cleaned up the kitchen, Granny says "Do you want to take a walk? I'll show you the swimming hole we all went to when we were kids." I said, sure! and off we went. We had to climb through one fence, crawl under a fence, go through a fence, and then climb over another one! it was funny! but anyway, the whole way, Granny was telling me about trips they took down there when she was a kid...one time they took a big tub PawPaw Good had made to mix concrete in down there because they thought it would make a good boat...well, it didn't float and the boys left the girls to carry that big old heavy thing out of there! Granny says when she and Poppy first moved back she went to look for it because the girls had got tired of carrying it and left it sittin' in the woods. She said it wasn't there anymore, though.
Oh, it was BEAUTIFUL down there! these big Ozark mountain rocks with icey cold clear water tumbling around them...it was wonderful! Granny said during the summer sometime, all us kids will have to go down there and take a daytrip and follow the creek all the way out to the pour-off and have a picnic! It'll be fun...i'm excited!
Anyway, we got back to the house just in time to pull the bread from the oven and then eat some hot, crusty deliciousness while Poppy told a couple of stories from when he was kid.
So, I'm going now to work on my American History homework, but, all-in-all it's been a very fulfilling day.
Oh, and Jason wrecked his truck last night. Poor guy, he's really tore up about it. Huh, he even texted me to tell me about it. :(
ahhhhhh
So ready for spring break...
So tired of the snow! Yes, it's beautiful, but I'm really feeling the need for some serious sunlight....
And I'm getting my hair cut next wednesday...don't know if it will be a trim or the whoooooooooooooooooole thing! l0l :)
Taking a sabbatical from guys....because obviously, that is not God's plan for me right now. Who am I to question Him? It's for the best, because He loves me. :)
Got in touch with an old friend!! John Michael Beardon. He's a good friend from Lake Hamilton, NOTHING SERIOUS, l0l, I think we are both just happy that we will know someone going to SAU in the fall!
Stressin' the running for a state officer thing...it's really hard!
Looking forward to a day on the lake with my friends Ron and Rachael. Ron has to get some hours on some speedboats before they can be rented out, so we will be going out on them.
Planned some senior stuff with Hailee...think it's gonna be AWESOME! :)
Anyway, just a quick little update!
So tired of the snow! Yes, it's beautiful, but I'm really feeling the need for some serious sunlight....
And I'm getting my hair cut next wednesday...don't know if it will be a trim or the whoooooooooooooooooole thing! l0l :)
Taking a sabbatical from guys....because obviously, that is not God's plan for me right now. Who am I to question Him? It's for the best, because He loves me. :)
Got in touch with an old friend!! John Michael Beardon. He's a good friend from Lake Hamilton, NOTHING SERIOUS, l0l, I think we are both just happy that we will know someone going to SAU in the fall!
Stressin' the running for a state officer thing...it's really hard!
Looking forward to a day on the lake with my friends Ron and Rachael. Ron has to get some hours on some speedboats before they can be rented out, so we will be going out on them.
Planned some senior stuff with Hailee...think it's gonna be AWESOME! :)
Anyway, just a quick little update!
Better Lock it in Your Pocket
So SAU is AMAZING.
Love it.
And I have yet to tour the Ag Department...sometime this summer...when I'm not working...["WORKING??? WHAT'S THIS???" you say...just hold your horses, I'll tell you in a minute!!!]
The campus ministry is soooooo good..they do soooo much STUFF!!! and I got to meet the youth leader, his wife, and their two little boys...Wonderful people!! They really really are.
Actually, the whole congregation at Jackson Street church of Christ [where I will be attending services] is so friendly!! I think every single family came up to say hey! Unfortunately, a lot of the youth wasn't there...they were in Morrilton, at the children's home, working!!! So that's A-OK! There's quite a few of the teachers who attend worship at Jackson street as well! One of them, Dr. Emerson, is in charge of the Dairy Department at SAU...i'll probly be working there during school...I got to talk to him, he was really nice!
I really like the small campus too...and the dorms I will be in (Talley Hall) is right across from the Ag department [well, it is the Ag dorm!].
Anyway, it was really really really great to see my Uncle Buddy and Aunt Julia this weekend too...Even if i did end up with strep throat! :(
But on a more serious note....
....if I don't get away from the house, I might go crazy...
...I have to go to the dr. tomorrow, so I will probly hang out in town for a little bit...by myself, but in town with PEOPLE none-the-less...
OH and we ended up with a dog. A cute one, but he sheds. yuck.
[[[and the Brad thing still stinks. It still hurts! Luckily, I have good friends to fall back on...shoutout to Clint right here, for taking my call at 3AM when I couldn't hold it in anymore!! Love ya, buddy.]]]
And work....
...I will be working at the Andy Williams Moonriver Bar and Grill as a server's aid, starting in April...provided Rachael's brother brings the application home soon...he's the hookup for me and rachael there...I will be getting minimum wage, plus tips, plus 1% from the bar...I can't be a full server because I'm not 21, l0l. :) I'm rather looking forward to it!!
Love it.
And I have yet to tour the Ag Department...sometime this summer...when I'm not working...["WORKING??? WHAT'S THIS???" you say...just hold your horses, I'll tell you in a minute!!!]
The campus ministry is soooooo good..they do soooo much STUFF!!! and I got to meet the youth leader, his wife, and their two little boys...Wonderful people!! They really really are.
Actually, the whole congregation at Jackson Street church of Christ [where I will be attending services] is so friendly!! I think every single family came up to say hey! Unfortunately, a lot of the youth wasn't there...they were in Morrilton, at the children's home, working!!! So that's A-OK! There's quite a few of the teachers who attend worship at Jackson street as well! One of them, Dr. Emerson, is in charge of the Dairy Department at SAU...i'll probly be working there during school...I got to talk to him, he was really nice!
I really like the small campus too...and the dorms I will be in (Talley Hall) is right across from the Ag department [well, it is the Ag dorm!].
Anyway, it was really really really great to see my Uncle Buddy and Aunt Julia this weekend too...Even if i did end up with strep throat! :(
But on a more serious note....
....if I don't get away from the house, I might go crazy...
...I have to go to the dr. tomorrow, so I will probly hang out in town for a little bit...by myself, but in town with PEOPLE none-the-less...
OH and we ended up with a dog. A cute one, but he sheds. yuck.
[[[and the Brad thing still stinks. It still hurts! Luckily, I have good friends to fall back on...shoutout to Clint right here, for taking my call at 3AM when I couldn't hold it in anymore!! Love ya, buddy.]]]
And work....
...I will be working at the Andy Williams Moonriver Bar and Grill as a server's aid, starting in April...provided Rachael's brother brings the application home soon...he's the hookup for me and rachael there...I will be getting minimum wage, plus tips, plus 1% from the bar...I can't be a full server because I'm not 21, l0l. :) I'm rather looking forward to it!!
I'm the best darn thing your eyes have ever seen. Tru' dat, playa.
So.
Saw Brad at the games yesterday.
I spell AWKKWARDD with two ks and two ds cuz it was THAT BAD. First he ignored me, then came over and sat right in front of me, like he used to when we were still "together" I could smell his cologne, which, by the way, is AMAZING. And guys who smell good always get to me!
But I was laying in bed last night thinking about it...and I realized that God doesn't let things happen without reason behind them, right? So maybe it hurts, but you know there must be lesson mixed in there too....I'm leaving in August, and I will be very far away....meeting all kinds of new people...so getting serious now would not be a good idea, right? Plus, I worried way too much. I think maybe another lesson in there was "Give it all to Jesus to carry, or you'll never be completely happy." Now, I know that doesn't mean live like hippie with no worries or cares or anything...it just means, lighten up! God makes things happen for a reason...it does no good brooding over things or wishing you could go back in time and do something different, because you can't. Go out and do something productive, don't just moan and groan about the "woulda-shoulda-couldas"
I think I'm going to try to make that my motto from now on...Everything happens for a reason, so stop worrying about it and give it all to God to take care of. If he cares about the lilies of the field and the sparrows, don't you think he cares about you too?
Saw Brad at the games yesterday.
I spell AWKKWARDD with two ks and two ds cuz it was THAT BAD. First he ignored me, then came over and sat right in front of me, like he used to when we were still "together" I could smell his cologne, which, by the way, is AMAZING. And guys who smell good always get to me!
But I was laying in bed last night thinking about it...and I realized that God doesn't let things happen without reason behind them, right? So maybe it hurts, but you know there must be lesson mixed in there too....I'm leaving in August, and I will be very far away....meeting all kinds of new people...so getting serious now would not be a good idea, right? Plus, I worried way too much. I think maybe another lesson in there was "Give it all to Jesus to carry, or you'll never be completely happy." Now, I know that doesn't mean live like hippie with no worries or cares or anything...it just means, lighten up! God makes things happen for a reason...it does no good brooding over things or wishing you could go back in time and do something different, because you can't. Go out and do something productive, don't just moan and groan about the "woulda-shoulda-couldas"
I think I'm going to try to make that my motto from now on...Everything happens for a reason, so stop worrying about it and give it all to God to take care of. If he cares about the lilies of the field and the sparrows, don't you think he cares about you too?
gOOD nEWS...cHARIOT'S a-COMIN'.
All Us Kids Who Went...from top, left to right:Katie
Shelby, Maggie
Sam, James, me
So, forseriously foreals, CHRISTeens 2008 WAS AMAZING.
l0l, I didn't cry...
...FOR ONCE!!
But Samantha, one of my super-duper good friends from the youth group, went down front and asked for prayer requests...she was really confused about some stuff...and I'm so thankful God let her come...and equally thankful God allowed her friend, Katie, to get to come as well...man that girl is so cooooo-el!!!
We had a blast, made some pretty amazing shirts...I'll get some more pics up ASAP...my camera broke, so I'm stealing them from Katie and Sam and Maggie and the Shelbster, HAHA, l0l.
The theme was "Legos," talking about not being able to build on any foundation but Christ...1 Corinthians 3:10-11.... Paraphrased that says "For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is JESUS CHRIST."
l0l, I didn't cry...
...FOR ONCE!!
But Samantha, one of my super-duper good friends from the youth group, went down front and asked for prayer requests...she was really confused about some stuff...and I'm so thankful God let her come...and equally thankful God allowed her friend, Katie, to get to come as well...man that girl is so cooooo-el!!!
We had a blast, made some pretty amazing shirts...I'll get some more pics up ASAP...my camera broke, so I'm stealing them from Katie and Sam and Maggie and the Shelbster, HAHA, l0l.
The theme was "Legos," talking about not being able to build on any foundation but Christ...1 Corinthians 3:10-11.... Paraphrased that says "For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is JESUS CHRIST."
The t-shirt design
The shirt I made...[front]...
...[back]
The speaker was Wesley Howell...been married a week before CHRISTeens...l0l, he couldn't stop telling us that! His wife is really pretty...she's from Brazil, he's from Alabama...L0L. He did an EXCELLENT job...especially Sunday morning, he was talking about "Where are the Leaders?" I really enjoyed that one.
The classes were good, well, I had 2 good ones and one okay one. I went to one where they taught us some new songs...AWESOME ones, l0l. One was a required class and that was the other good one...he was talking about going for what you really want...and the last one was "Hello, my name is..." talking about how people aren't just another name....why don't we talk to people? It was good in the sense that it really opened my eyes to some stuff, but we had just ate, and I was quite full and a little tired...but i stayed awake!
Anyway, it was lots of fun...I had an amazing time! Heather, I wish you could have gone, but maybe next year!! The theme for next year, by the way, is "The Body."
[&& me and brad are just friends. :)/:(...still a bit confused on that one, l0l]
However long the night, the dawn will break.
I certainly hope my dawn breaks soon....because these past two days have been really bad. Grr.
I don't know if that's just the way teenage hormones are supposed to be, or what, but Tuesday and today were just really DEPRESSED days for me...
I'm now entering the stage in the Brad thing where [in the past] things have always gone wrong. It's really hard living way out here, especially when you're not allowed to have ppl over, haven't been allowed to have people over since about 5th grade...he can't come see me, and, gas like it is, it's hard for my parents to let me go see him, because they have a hard time keeping both cars with enough gas in them.
And you know...i know they would let me go see him on school nights...but he never invites me. I hate inviting myself. I feel like the person i am inviting myself on doesn't really want me, or they would have thought of it first, right? idk...
I hear all the time about how teenagers are very easily depressed, because of their hormones, but I don't really agree with that...I think everyone is as susceptible to depression, everyone in the whole wide world. I think it shows in teens more because it's practically expected of them....if you're not upset or depressed or sad, then something is wrong with you! Bull-LOGNA! Teens also haven't really completely fallen into the trap society sets for adults...Saying adults are to know who they are and be happy and healthy in that knowledge...please, does anyone TRULY know who they are? or do you still find out new things about yourself everyday? "Adults who show depression just don't know about their life, or who they are, blah blah blah." Whatever. Everyone is as suseptible as everyone else, but it's not socially healthy for older members of society to display it...whereas it's nearly expected for teens to show it.
Oh, yeah, and my Louisiana aunt and uncle forgot my birthday.
L0L. I'm terrible at remembering birthdays, too, so I'm not upset. :)
I don't know if that's just the way teenage hormones are supposed to be, or what, but Tuesday and today were just really DEPRESSED days for me...
I'm now entering the stage in the Brad thing where [in the past] things have always gone wrong. It's really hard living way out here, especially when you're not allowed to have ppl over, haven't been allowed to have people over since about 5th grade...he can't come see me, and, gas like it is, it's hard for my parents to let me go see him, because they have a hard time keeping both cars with enough gas in them.
And you know...i know they would let me go see him on school nights...but he never invites me. I hate inviting myself. I feel like the person i am inviting myself on doesn't really want me, or they would have thought of it first, right? idk...
I hear all the time about how teenagers are very easily depressed, because of their hormones, but I don't really agree with that...I think everyone is as susceptible to depression, everyone in the whole wide world. I think it shows in teens more because it's practically expected of them....if you're not upset or depressed or sad, then something is wrong with you! Bull-LOGNA! Teens also haven't really completely fallen into the trap society sets for adults...Saying adults are to know who they are and be happy and healthy in that knowledge...please, does anyone TRULY know who they are? or do you still find out new things about yourself everyday? "Adults who show depression just don't know about their life, or who they are, blah blah blah." Whatever. Everyone is as suseptible as everyone else, but it's not socially healthy for older members of society to display it...whereas it's nearly expected for teens to show it.
Oh, yeah, and my Louisiana aunt and uncle forgot my birthday.
L0L. I'm terrible at remembering birthdays, too, so I'm not upset. :)
I'm an icon to the teenage underground world.
PHRASE TO PONDER:
"I want out of the labels. I don't want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that's not on the map. A real adventure. A sphinx. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined."
-JSTAR
RANDOM....thingie. I may use it later, but I find it very intriguing and slightly depressing. More intriguing though, which is why i like it.
Right, so this weekend was AMAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZING [thus far].
I will edit this after tomorrow, which is when my Valentine's Day is...{Brad had to skin out a buffalo on Valentine's Day...he's always cranky after he has to worko n something big, so I said forget it, let's do this Sunday night.}.
But yeah, an ex-friend and I became friends again.
I got to swim! ((--[!indoor pool!]--))
My team did better than we thought we would at the quizbowl thing...I had an average of 10 questions a game (that's 100 points, ppl, and our average score is 150-ish.)
I would like to thank Heather for the SOOPA-DOOPA sweet comment she left me...thankyouthankyouthankyou...It really meant a lot. ily! :]
anyway, I'll edit and add more about tomorrow...uh..TOMORROW!
EDITEDITEDITEDIT
Right, so yeah, my "Valentine's Day" was not so hot. It was wonderful to see Brad again...but all we did was watch some stupid Family Guy movie with his friends. Woooooooo.
And he said he was gonna actually take me out.
Hmph!
On a happier note, his "friends" buzzed his head, and now he looks silly.
That's what I call karma.
[kay, so that was a little mean. O'well.]
"I want out of the labels. I don't want my whole life crammed into a single word. A story. I want to find something else, unknowable, some place to be that's not on the map. A real adventure. A sphinx. A mystery. A blank. Unknown. Undefined."
-JSTAR
RANDOM....thingie. I may use it later, but I find it very intriguing and slightly depressing. More intriguing though, which is why i like it.
Right, so this weekend was AMAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZING [thus far].
I will edit this after tomorrow, which is when my Valentine's Day is...{Brad had to skin out a buffalo on Valentine's Day...he's always cranky after he has to worko n something big, so I said forget it, let's do this Sunday night.}.
But yeah, an ex-friend and I became friends again.
I got to swim! ((--[!indoor pool!]--))
My team did better than we thought we would at the quizbowl thing...I had an average of 10 questions a game (that's 100 points, ppl, and our average score is 150-ish.)
I would like to thank Heather for the SOOPA-DOOPA sweet comment she left me...thankyouthankyouthankyou...It really meant a lot. ily! :]
anyway, I'll edit and add more about tomorrow...uh..TOMORROW!
EDITEDITEDITEDIT
Right, so yeah, my "Valentine's Day" was not so hot. It was wonderful to see Brad again...but all we did was watch some stupid Family Guy movie with his friends. Woooooooo.
And he said he was gonna actually take me out.
Hmph!
On a happier note, his "friends" buzzed his head, and now he looks silly.
That's what I call karma.
[kay, so that was a little mean. O'well.]
Apathy Rant
Kay, so i'm going to rant.
WHY do people throw their lives away? I'm not talking about people in their 20s, and so on. I'm talking about people MY AGE. TEENAGERS. For instance...My class at school has, for the most part, worked very hard to become NATIONALLY recognized by one of the most respected high-school organizations in the country...after we leave, will the school fall to pieces? Some of next year's (08-09) seniors will work hard, i know they will, and I am so proud of every single one who does...but for the most part the classes below this year's (07-08) seniors just DON'T CARE.
Apathy is taking over the country!! Seriously, I know i am extrememly apathetic, perhaps a better word is lazy, compared to when i was younger. These little girls I baby-sit for do nothing all day...when I was their ages (7,8,9, and 11), my parents made me work...now they don't as much, but they still make me do clean my room/bathroom, do dishes, laundry, etc....these girls do absolutely nothing...Why? My dad is all the time talking about how my grandparents never let him do ANYTHING, but I get to do EVERYTHING...well, I pay for my activities, goshdangit!! He didn't have a job. Neither do I, I just win contests.
But, i digress.
WLC (Washinton Leadership Conference) taught me so many things...namely, that, to be a leader, you have to serve as well...It taught me that the best examples can be kids no older than myself, and even younger...I don't have to be an adult to unlock my potential...
I just dont want to sit around here anymore and watch the grass grow. I want to get out and do something to make my community, my country, my WORLD a better place...I want to give back a portion of everything that has been GIVEN to me...I don't pay for the people who love me, I don't pay for the BEST times I've ever had...I want other people, mainly small children who enjoy giving themselves swirlies (inside joke) to learn to love everyone like i TRY to...to want to give back...Is this dream too big?
I hope not.
WHY do people throw their lives away? I'm not talking about people in their 20s, and so on. I'm talking about people MY AGE. TEENAGERS. For instance...My class at school has, for the most part, worked very hard to become NATIONALLY recognized by one of the most respected high-school organizations in the country...after we leave, will the school fall to pieces? Some of next year's (08-09) seniors will work hard, i know they will, and I am so proud of every single one who does...but for the most part the classes below this year's (07-08) seniors just DON'T CARE.
Apathy is taking over the country!! Seriously, I know i am extrememly apathetic, perhaps a better word is lazy, compared to when i was younger. These little girls I baby-sit for do nothing all day...when I was their ages (7,8,9, and 11), my parents made me work...now they don't as much, but they still make me do clean my room/bathroom, do dishes, laundry, etc....these girls do absolutely nothing...Why? My dad is all the time talking about how my grandparents never let him do ANYTHING, but I get to do EVERYTHING...well, I pay for my activities, goshdangit!! He didn't have a job. Neither do I, I just win contests.
But, i digress.
WLC (Washinton Leadership Conference) taught me so many things...namely, that, to be a leader, you have to serve as well...It taught me that the best examples can be kids no older than myself, and even younger...I don't have to be an adult to unlock my potential...
I just dont want to sit around here anymore and watch the grass grow. I want to get out and do something to make my community, my country, my WORLD a better place...I want to give back a portion of everything that has been GIVEN to me...I don't pay for the people who love me, I don't pay for the BEST times I've ever had...I want other people, mainly small children who enjoy giving themselves swirlies (inside joke) to learn to love everyone like i TRY to...to want to give back...Is this dream too big?
I hope not.
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